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Just a short post this morning, but not that short!
I'm coming to the growing understanding that I don't know much. I don't know much about soil bricks and there's so much about civil engineering that I don't understand. And then there's all the other subjects in the world that I don't even understand the vocabulary for!
The Meaning and Purpose of Life? Not a clue. So I'm living for God, but what does that mean? I can try to have an attitude like that of Christ Jesus in all situations, but what do I do when I have to chose which situation I should be in?
You can probably guess where these questions have arised from, I'm in the tortuous process of applying for jobs. Up until now the question of what to do with my life have been relatively easy. Until 16 it was dictated by law, and then sixth form and uni were the natural progression. But now I have free choice (but then again we're not really free, but that's a whole other ball park...)
Why has this decision making flummoxed me so? I've always assumed that the meaning and purpose of life would suddenly be revealed with perfect clarity. You know like in films when the person has a near death experience and suddenly everything becomes clear. That's not how life works. I'd accepted that for other film generated ideas - like how you will be perfectly happy when you find the right boy/girl who will be a random stranger that sweeps you off your feet one day metaphorically/literally. But why do I cling onto the idea that the meaning/purpose of life will become clear without any effort on my part?
Really I should take more time to read/think/pray and I will try, but maybe I'll never understand the meaning/purpose of my life in this life. But that's OK too, God's plan will happen even if I don't know it. I suppose the moral of this morning's random musing is to not get downhearted if the film-generated notion of how life should be doesn't work out.
And for reading all that, have a song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=paMdd65jnHA It's been in my head due to listening to too many show tunes (although admittedly I did think that the title was 'Good morning sunshine'!)
